As I close the book of my saddest chapter of my life, there has to be some controversy.
A big one, it seems.
As I look her friendster and facebook page for the last time, three words appeared out of nowhere and hit me instantly. These 3 words are the most powerful words that can simply devastate me when it comes to the girl related to May 10,2008.
And for a split second. It hit me. Reality caught up with me in an instant.
These words are: "In a relationship".
As i learn how to close the deal regarding this girl, she also closed the little opening of the door that I'm hoping one day she would open up for me. For one year, I've hoping that there's a possible second chance between us. For one year, patience has been my best virtue, waiting and persevering that time would come wherein we'll meet again. For one year, I've learned and experienced the true definition of martyrdom. For one year, I've also relieved my faith in the so-called "destiny".
And now, it's all over.
Now that she's stepping into a new relationship, I'm just happy for her. I'm happy that she's found the one that would make her happy, something that I failed to do before. Moving on is the next best thing that will happen to me. At least now, I can accept the fact that she's happy with someone now. She had learned how to love someone and now has someone to care for. Although we didn't end up together, I can say that she's responsible for what I am today. For all the things I've given and fought for her, I can honestly say that i never regret making those decisions. And if rejecting or hurting me means she'll find a better one(which really happened), then so be it. I'll gladly accept the fact that I'm not good enough for her just for her to be fully satisfied in her life.
I wish her happiness and good luck to her current relationship. Let's hope that this relationship will last. I have no grudge nor bitterness towards her. I'm even thankful that she rejected me because I'm not the Michael Kent that you know today if not for her. I know that closing this book and moving on is not going to be easy, but I'm ready for the journey that awaits me and I've got to. For one year, I've restrained all the pain just to wait for the right time. Now, I'm withdrawing all the pain and waiting for the right one to come. Writing this blog has given me the urge to perform better in every aspect of my life. I know I'm can be better and certainly, I have the motivation to perform better.
June 26,2009 is the day that i shall end this impossible dream of mine. For the record, I've waited one year, one month and 16 days before closing the deal.
If this was a boxing fight, I've taken the fight into the 15 round. If this was a basketball game, I've taken the game into 4 overtimes. If this was a baseball game, 9 innings is not enough to shut me down.
But, this is a game. A game of life.
Game over, Mr. Kent.
A big one, it seems.
As I look her friendster and facebook page for the last time, three words appeared out of nowhere and hit me instantly. These 3 words are the most powerful words that can simply devastate me when it comes to the girl related to May 10,2008.
And for a split second. It hit me. Reality caught up with me in an instant.
These words are: "In a relationship".
As i learn how to close the deal regarding this girl, she also closed the little opening of the door that I'm hoping one day she would open up for me. For one year, I've hoping that there's a possible second chance between us. For one year, patience has been my best virtue, waiting and persevering that time would come wherein we'll meet again. For one year, I've learned and experienced the true definition of martyrdom. For one year, I've also relieved my faith in the so-called "destiny".
And now, it's all over.
Now that she's stepping into a new relationship, I'm just happy for her. I'm happy that she's found the one that would make her happy, something that I failed to do before. Moving on is the next best thing that will happen to me. At least now, I can accept the fact that she's happy with someone now. She had learned how to love someone and now has someone to care for. Although we didn't end up together, I can say that she's responsible for what I am today. For all the things I've given and fought for her, I can honestly say that i never regret making those decisions. And if rejecting or hurting me means she'll find a better one(which really happened), then so be it. I'll gladly accept the fact that I'm not good enough for her just for her to be fully satisfied in her life.
I wish her happiness and good luck to her current relationship. Let's hope that this relationship will last. I have no grudge nor bitterness towards her. I'm even thankful that she rejected me because I'm not the Michael Kent that you know today if not for her. I know that closing this book and moving on is not going to be easy, but I'm ready for the journey that awaits me and I've got to. For one year, I've restrained all the pain just to wait for the right time. Now, I'm withdrawing all the pain and waiting for the right one to come. Writing this blog has given me the urge to perform better in every aspect of my life. I know I'm can be better and certainly, I have the motivation to perform better.
June 26,2009 is the day that i shall end this impossible dream of mine. For the record, I've waited one year, one month and 16 days before closing the deal.
If this was a boxing fight, I've taken the fight into the 15 round. If this was a basketball game, I've taken the game into 4 overtimes. If this was a baseball game, 9 innings is not enough to shut me down.
But, this is a game. A game of life.
Game over, Mr. Kent.
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