A New Beginning

Survey says that we people tend to do at least one stupid stuff in our lives that in the end, we will fully regret it.

People says that when people get heart broken or fallen deeply in love, we usually do something stupid or weird that we don't even care the outcome just so as long as we can do that certain something.

Yes, it is proven a fact that people go through these stages.

Including me.

For the past 4 months, i was blinded by a certain someone. I was down and depressed when i lost her. I did stupid stuff that my closest friends never imagined i could ever done in my entire life. These things haunted me as time goes by, wondering how could i ever done these things to myself. Questions began circling around my head, asking myself do i simply deserve this.

The past 4 months, i rebelled against my parents knowing they were the cause as to why i lost someone. I blamed myself being a Chinese and even blamed Chinese tradition as to why this tradition has to be surfaced and i have to suffer to their so-called beliefs. I blamed God and began to doubt whether there was even one. I was so hard to myself, telling myself if i could have done things differently than these things would not have happened.

Pretty stupid, huh? Well, it was really stupid and childish and i regret making those mistakes.

Now i realized the simple slogan, "Everything happens for a reason".

Better yet, I got bumped in the head and i finally woke up... in reality that is.

Closest friends keep asking me "Mike, kelan ka magigising?". Well, the time is now. I faced reality. Simple as that.

I tried to defy the odds of hoping to do the impossible. People doubted me, telling me it was simply impossible. Just 2 weeks ago, i just won the biggest battle that have faced me in 26 years of my existence. Now i ask myself, do i still deserved to be knocked down when all the happiness is out there for me to grab? Is it the end of the world just because i lost someone? Is there really no reason for me to live here in this world just because of one incident that happened on July 10,2010?

A simple answer. No. And the once arrogant, confident, young man named Michael Kent is back.

Bitter? I've matured enough to dispose bitterness inside me. Regret? We made choices in life that we need to face their respective consequences and regret is something that doesn't exist in my dictionary anymore.

When one door closes, another opens. This is one slogan that i would remember for the rest of my life. From Jennylyn Ong, God gave me a chance to know a better girl in Sheila Gaw. When things didn't work out, God gave me another wonderful opportunity in someone named Leah Andrea Amutan. For the past year, God gave me all the perfect memories that i would never forget being with her. As they used to say, "All good things must come to an end". Sadly, we parted ways on July 10,2010.

Who's next? I still don't know. But one thing that i'm sure of.. There will be someone after Leah Andrea..

Moving on is a phase and i can say I'm 80% closer towards that goal. I learned my lesson. It took me 2 years to move on from Sheila. 2 years is a very long period of sadness, bitterness and depression. Now, let's try 4-5 months as i try to close out one of the saddest chapter of my life.

Now, it's a perfect time for a new chapter. A new beginning that would make the book of Michael Kent interesting once again.

All it takes is one bump in the head. And of course, reality as well. :)